Hope, miscarriage and infertility.
It was two years ago today that I got the phone call. I saw my doctor's number on the screen while I was in class teaching. Since I had just been there two days before I got very very scared and stepped out to pick up. I felt this deep seated pain in the pit of my stomach. I have never had good news when this doctor has called. Dr. Lindsay Mastrine, a fertility specialist in Brooklyn, NY had just told me that after 15 years of trying, 6 miscarriages, one in utero death and many tears, that I was pregnant. Well she didn't say that exactly, she said, "Cristina, I have some news for you, your HCG is 15,000" Silence on the other end, I didn't know if that was good yet, I had been through this before, I was waiting for her to say "it's not viable". But instead she says, "You're pregnant!" "Congratulations!". I started tearing, my principal walked by and he saw my face so he started talking to my students to keep them busy. I didn't know what to say. She asked me to come in two days to see how everything is progressing. She also told me, "Please take it easy." I went to my knitting class, which for me was Ironic because a year earlier I had learned I was pregnant in that very same knit shop. I got the call there. I was so excited. I stopped by the drug store and bought some pregnancy pops so that I could surprise my husband. I invited him to dinner. I was so excited at the Knit shop but I couldn't tell them yet. I love those ladies so it was really hard. I did tell my best friend because I needed ideas to surprise my husband. We get to the restaurant and I order him two bourbons. Why 2? Because I needed him to believe that their was one for him and one for me. I told him Cheers and congratulations we are going to need the drinks and put out the pregnancy pops and he didn't know what to say. I had to tell him I was pregnant, and the disbelief and wonder began. It's national trisomy month, we lost a boy at 13 weeks to Trisomy 10. It would have been easy to give up. I almost needed to let it go and move on, but when I look at my son, I'm so glad I didn't. Maybe you know someone today who needs to hear that there is hope, maybe you need to know there's hope, please share my story. I will continue to post about how we were able to finally get pregnant with a a viable pregnancy. But you can read more at Richandcristinawantababy.com in the meantime. Have a beautiful blessed day, knowing, Today could be the day!!! For anything you desire.